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Passion Or Lust To Fly?

I have this strange obsession with aviation. I don’t know if I am passionate about flying or am I just lusting for it. If I am really passionate about flying, I might consider making myself a pilot.

Whenever I see someone flies an aircraft, I drool and I yearn to be the one sitting at the left hand seat. Then again, it could just be a lust for it and if I made it a profession, I probably wouldn’t like it that much. See, that’s the thing I am not sure. I fear it might just be the lust and if I took it as a career, I’ll be friggin’ bonded to the airline for like 15 YEARS!!!

Look at this, I find this thrilling…

I dream of this office of mine. It feels so comfortable and it makes me feel like flying every now and then. I feel a sense of freedom when I fly 35,000 feet above sea level. I feel like no one can touch me and ask me to do what I don’t wanna do.

I know flying is like any other profession like a sea captain, or even a bus driver but there is just this distinct difference. Flying an aircraft needs a great deal of dicipline and concentration. Planes are up in the air and it often does not go the way you want it to.

This baby isn’t an easy one to land under crosswinds. It’s huge and it’s heavy but surprisingly gracious with its performance. I have come a long way to be able to fly this thing, well, virtually of course. I am wondering, should I take take it to the next level?

I was thinking, why not? I mean, since I feel a sense of freedom, enjoys travelling and also of course since I love planes so much, why not? What really deters me is the 15 year bond which literally means, I’d be 40 after the bond. So, I have a choice to make. I either go for it and stick with it until I’m old or I forget it and stick to my mundane daily routine and will only live to enjoy my flights in the virtual world.

So, is this just a lust or passion?

Go Straight!!!

After much hesitation and reluctance, I have decided to leave my fate to god. I decided to let god show me the best way I should be going. So I did something which I will not elaborate here. Signs from god told me to go straight and I was still not convinced. The pessimist that I am told me that this cannot be right. After all, it’s not what I really wanted.

I decided to give fate another try and what did I do to double confirm? I did coin tossing.

If the above was the result, I’d continue to go straight.

And, if the result was this, I’d divert to another road. What do you know? The result turned out to be…

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Unbelievable, seems like as if I was fated to go straight. The gods were giving me the sign and the coin tossing confirmed it. I mean, I tossed once and not twice, not trice. There was a 50/50 chance and it just had to drop on heads.

So I guess this is it. Wish me luck people! I hope the road leading down would be a better one and would have something so much more to offer me in life.

That being said, I did an IQ test because I was so sure I was gonna beat this girl in it. So I took it and this was my result:

I am soooo proud of myself because according to this chart,

I am like a Bright Mastermind. Just 2 ranks shy from the top.

BUT… this girl….for lack of nothing better to post… got this…

She is like a Regional Genius OK!!! I am so humiliated by my miserable score of 122!

Dilemma at A Junction

I am coming to a junction where I have to choose a road to be taken. Going straight would be the road I have always taken all these while. I don’t exactly feel happy walking along the current road. Of course, the scenery is pretty much OK with me except that I cannot seem to find fulfilment on the road I am taking. I don’t seem to enjoy walking along the road I am taking. I don’t seem to find proper transport and accommodation along the current road. Its not too bad but still I feel I would have a brighter future if I divert to the next road.

Then again, it might just be me. People have always been saying, “The grass always looks greener on the other side of the fence” which literally means, things are not always how they seem to be. It isn’t exactly as good as it seems. Which is exactly what is putting me in a dilemma. On one hand, I don’t feel happy and I wanna divert to another road, but on the other hand, I am thinking if it might not be a wise decision to make, fearing that I might make the wrong decision and the road that I diverted to might not be that good after all.

At this very moment in time, I am praying to god to assist me in making the best decision as to whether to stay or to move on. What would you guys do? If you’re not happy but the condition is fine, would you stay or would you move on to find your happiness with slightly less fulfilling conditions?

So the question remains, to move on or to stay?