Kuching Today

I am having a great time in Kuching but they say, all good things must come to an end. Yes, a part of it has ended today. My dear had just departed from Kuching not too long ago, back to where ever she should be going. I hate it whenever this happens. I have never liked the feeling of separation and never will.

I always get this nostalgic feeling whenever someone I love leaves me, be it my family member or anyone else dear to me. This one was especially hard because we spent quality time together and went to places together. Thinking of it now makes me feel blue. Don’t get me wrong, I enjoyed my time with her, it’s just that I now miss the time we spent together. Thanks to my work nature, I was also literally cursing everyday, since day one she was here.

I get nostalgic even before the day of departure. The day of departure itself is hard. I have not much of a mood left in me to enjoy myself. The thought of having to be separated in a matter of hours just gets to me. The airport itself looks nice and enticing if I am just there for the fun of it or if I know I am on my way for a vacation. When it comes to sending people off, the view of the airport itself is just depressing.

As I carried her luggage to the check in counter, all I could think of was to get her checked in first, since it was running a lil late. Thank god, the process was a breeze. Oh, and the airport smelt of salted fish. Now, which smart alec brought salted fish to the airport or was someone smelling like salted fish? HMMMM…

Not wanting anymore of that smell, we proceeded to Eraman for some fresh perfume smell. Yeap, definitely smelt better. She wanted to check on the Ralph Lauren perfume and the sales lady was a bitch.

“Come come, I’ll do it for you, you’ll spoil the spray nozzle later…”

Bitch, I have been using perfume all my life and the nozzles are all the same. You don’t tell me I’ll spoil the nozzle. I’ll slap the living daylight out of you if I could. For the sake of courtesy, I shall not curse in this post but that bitch is really getting on my nerves. The moment she said that, I left the shop immediately.

We lingered around the airport a little, quite reluctant to be separated. I had a lot of things to tell her, but I just couldn’t find words for them. I was practically quiet the few minutes we were lingering at the airport. All I could do was look at her and said how fast time passed and how everything had come to an end so fast.

The I saw the aircraft landing and it was a sign that she should be boarding. Still reluctant to be separated, we sticked around a while longer until the aircraft was parked at the tarmac. After that, as reluctant as I was, I told her it was time to board as I didn’t want her to miss her flight.

I walked her to the departure hall and I gave her a long, tight hug. I was beginning to feel really emotional. I bid her Bon Voyage. I saw her eyes getting teary and my heart was starting to cry as well. I felt very heavy hearted as I looked into her eyes. Trying to remain calm and macho, I refrained from dropping even a single drop of tears. I waved her good bye as she went through the security check and disappeared into the hall. I won’t deny the fact that I felt very emotional the moment she left me, because that would be a complete lie.

I went outside the terminal and watched her queue for boarding, still reluctant to leave the airport. As the plane left the terminal after all passengers boarded and took onto the skies, I walked to my car, still not used to the fact that I am all alone. As I looked at the airport one last time, I drove off with the nostalgic feeling. I now know how it feels when people lose someone they love, forever. It’s a really sad feeling and it is at times like this, I wish I had all the money in the world and almost everything would be virtually possible.

As I am writing this now, I am still feeling really blue and this is the only place I can voice it out. Alas, I am going to retire from the online world for now and get some fresh air to make myself feel better. Take care peepz! Till then, cheers!

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Gone Into Exile, Doing Some Thinking

Yes, I have gone into exile. No, not from the world but from the world of MSN that is. I just cannot bear being there and not chatting with that someone. Sometimes, I am filled with remorse for not doing something only to later let someone else do it first. Then again, that has been done and over with. This is probably my last post for now until I return to civilization.

As I am writing this, I am thinking and analyzing the very existence of me in this world. I am popping questions to myself every so often. Questions that challenge me intellectually for answers. Until I can think straight and find answers to my questions, I’ll remain in exile.

Anyway, I was chatting with a friend of mine not too long ago and I popped a question to her, asking, “What are your requisites for a guy to become your boyfriend material”. Hell, she gave me one whole list of requirements that made me go O_o. Anyway, I sort of replied each and every question but for the general public, I’ll restructure my answers somewhat. Of course, I’ll also strike out some questions not relevant to the general public.

Anyway, here goes:

1) Must be 175cm(or whatever measurement you prefer) tall

Sorry people, yes it’s ideal for guys to be that tall, but I believe when it comes to really liking a person, you’d be too blind to even notice he is shorter than that. I am personally shorter than that, but not by much. I am still generally taller than most girls anyway, but I don’t give a damn anyway.

2) Must be matured

I notice a lot of girls like matured guys and I acknowledge that. Then again, maturity is a very subjective matter and it depends on the maturity of the girl as well. You don’t and you can’t expect me to treat immature girls with maturity, do you?

3) Drives nice car

Now, I know a lot of girls will beg to differ on this matter but really, in almost every girl, there is always a desire for their hunks to drive nice cars. They might not know jack about cars but in Malaysia, this will always hold true until some miracle happens, Nice car = Loaded. PERIOD!

4) Older than me

This is generally the case but in this 21st century, this older than me thing does not really hold anymore. I can be younger than you by a year or two but really, what does it matter? I mean, we love each other not due to our age, is it? We love each other for who we are.

5) Must be a gentleman

Yes, every girl wants a gentleman. Girls who disagree, don’t talk. Wait till you get one that is not a gentleman and gets bashed up for no apparent reason, then you come and talk to me. Thank you. So am I a gentleman? That depends on what type of girl I am with. If the girl wants me to be “cho” then I’ll be “cho”. If she wants me to be gentle, I can too.

6) Must be crazy about me

Again, this depends on how deep I love a girl. If she is the one, then I’ll be crazy over her. Hell, I’ll even sacrifice for her. Then again, if she isn’t the one, there cannot be any crazy feelings. No one can force it.

7) Accept me for who I am

Yes, I’ll accept my girl for who she is. Afterall, if I wouldn’t, then I wouldn’t have chosen her, to begin with. Then again, to a certain extend, I believe both parties can always change for the better. It’s not about accepting people for who they are, but rather some changes done to make things better, get the drill?

8 ) Love me unconditionally

If I were to love a girl conditionally, then it wouldn’t be true love I suppose. Unconditional love can only be given if the girl can fully understand me and love me unconditionally as well. Unconditional love can only be showered upon a girl who does not conflict with me unnecessarily. Then again, unconditional love is very subjective. Some girls are happy with the love showered upon them and some expects more. The guy might have already showered all his love but the girl finds it not enough and this leads to NOT loving her unconditionally.

9) Can cook very well

They say, the way to a girls heart is through her mouth. I reckon not all girls will need their guys to cook very well. Rather, they prefer guys who would serve and pamper them with meals once in a while. Bad taste isn’t an issue here as the love would make the food taste better than anything a good chef can prepare anyway.

10) Sense of humour

This is like the umpteenth time I have heard this. Almost every single girl I know of emphasizes on this point. I have to agree that this is really important. Humour is always an essence in everything. Without humour, everything just turns wrong and sour. So yes, I do have a good sense of humour, when I am in the mood though, but when I am not, don’t expect me to humour with you 24/7.

11) Good family background

Yes, this is an added bonus. A good family is always something good. You get no additional burden and pressure from family members. I would like to think of my family as quite a good one. I have no comments but you’ll see when you meet them.

12) Not possessive

This is also very subjective. Different girls view possessiveness differently. Guys might come as being possessive to some girls but really, sometimes, the intention is only to check on her security and safety. Of course, to a certain extend, it feels more like insecurity rather than caring. So, I really don’t know if I’ll turn out to be a possessive guy to girls.

13) Non-smoker, non-alchoholic, non-gambler

I have to say, I do smoke occasionally. I am not a hardcore smoker though. I just smoke for the thrill of it. I am willing to not smoke all together, even socially, if that is what it takes for things to work out with me and my girl. READ “smoke occasionally”. So don’t give me comments like, “You smoking bastard.” I control when I smoke and don’t. In fact, I don’t smoke when I mingle with friends who do not smoke. Yes, I can do that! So I am no hardcore smoker.

I am also a social drinker and I drink if there is any occasion that calls for it or due to socializing reasons. I drink but I still know what I am doing. Drinking till you drop is never a good idea. Other than that, I don’t normally drink at home.

I am also a gambler when I go to Genting and come Chinese New Year. Other than that, no gambling, thank you. There is always a limit to everything. So long as you can distinguish the right and the wrong, it shouldn’t be a problem. Of course, I do not gamble away my house, wife and children. I am just not that type of person.

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Yeap, that’s the end of it. It’s my turn to list my requirements for girls to be girlfriend material but not in this post. It will be in the near future.

All that being said, Happy Chinese New Year people!! Have a great and prosperous year ahead and may your business or whatever you are doing blossom! Take care people, I am off to exile land again. Bye…

Two Timer Jerks

On The Side Note:
1) This girl, yes, GIRL is so foulmouthed (as she calls herself) that her blog is so full of profanities. Nonetheless, I just DIG the meanness of the blog. Tiu nia seng, pu ki tiang, chao fa hai, nia ma chao chibai son of a bitch….. See, faichai (she lets me call her Wei Wei), I can also curse like there is no tomorrow.

2) I got myself so drunk the night of 31st January 2007, it felt so good. It felt great to be able to release all the stress I have inside me and for once not care about anything in the world but to just enjoy 3 jug of beer, sing to the music and get high.

Of late, I haven’t exactly been motivated to write any interesting nor motivational posts. The posts of mine have been pretty demoralizing lately. Then again, how can I be writing motivational posts when I, myself, am not motivated?

Anyhow, back to the topic, I have a friend who had just recently broke up with a two timer jerk. As a guy, I hate to say this, but a two timer jerk is just a disgrace to the XY chromosome species. In no way do I condone the acts of a two timer jerk, in fact I despise this kinda people down to my very soul.

Two timer jerks, or rather, bastards go out and find for another girl/guy and in the process, retain their spouse. Upon confirmation from the third party, they’ll then break up with their spouse. Otherwise, they’ll stay on and pretend to love their spouse and act like nothing ever happened. Don’t tell me you still love them, because if you say that, I am going to slap your stupid face off your head and shove it straight up your @$$ and after that pull it back out and feed it to the stray dogs by the road side. Who did you think you were kidding? A five year old kid? Any Tom, Dick and Harry would have agreed with me that you’re just kidding yourself.

How, in the name of god, can someone actually do that? That is just pure selfishness and it doesn’t do anyone any good. If you want to go for another person, please let the current one go. Be fair to them, don’t let them suffer in your process. After all, you’re seeking a new partner and you don’t love them anymore because if you did, you wouldn’t be doing what you’re doing now, to begin with.

Since, you don’t love them anymore, why not just let go? Why are you retaining them? As your spare in case you fail miserably on the other one? Just to make yourself feel good? You don’t love them anymore, it won’t make you feel any better. It’ll just make them feel real bad about themselves later on.

I see no point in two timing. I’d rather be single if I didn’t love a girl anymore and be on the look out for my Mrs Right. That’s fair to her and me and at least I was being honest and wasn’t playing her feelings. I’ll tell you two timers out there one thing, it’s not always Sunday, if you get my drill. One day, you’re gonna get a taste of your own medicine and it is only then that you’ll realize how silly you were when you did the exact same thing to your ex spouse. By that time, I guess it would all probably be too late anyway, since your ex wouldn’t even wanna see or meet you ever!

One last thing, I intended to make this a very mean post, but as you can all see, I have tried my utmost, miserable best to keep this post as discreet as possible although I probably shouldn’t because I just despise this kinda people. Everyone knows what happens to the people I dislike. Then again, I won’t make this a very mean post because I wanna try keep my blog from profanities, if possible, well except for the On The Side Note above. I was just trying to make my point there. One last advise, if you continue doing what you do, both boats will end up going their own separate ways and you’ll end up in neither boats and sink right to the bottom of the sea. So good luck be careful and think before two timing, you have been warned!!